Unassisted birth advocate Rixa Freeze ponders how different women can view epidurals very differently:
Epidural + empowerment are two words that don't always get put together in the same sentence, even among women who gladly choose epidurals for pain relief. For me--huge caveat that I'm speaking about my own thought processes here, not generalizing myself onto all women--an epidural is the opposite of empowerment. Not just emotionally or psychologically, but in the literal sense, too, because an epidural causes full or partial paralysis from the waist down. The thought of losing sensation, of literally being unable to walk or move, isn't something I would look forward to in labor. To me, labor = movement. I cannot imagine having a contraction without moving in response to it.She views epidurals as disempowering because they limit movement and sensation, yet there are many women who find them empowering because they eliminate pain. Dr JaneMaree Maher of the Centre for Women’s Studies & Gender Research at Monash University in Australia,offers a very different way of conceptualizing pain and empowerment, one that resonates with the majority of women. In her article The painful truth about childbirth: contemporary discourses of Caesareans, risk and the realities of pain , she observes:
... Pain will potentially push birthing women into a non-rational space where we become other; ‘screaming, yelling, self-centered and demanding drugs’. The fear being articulated is two-fold; that birth will hurt a lot and that birth will somehow undo us as subjects. I consider this fear of pain and loss of subjectivity are vitally important factors in the discussions about risks, choices and decisions that subtend ... reproductive debates, but they are little acknowledged. This is due, in part, to our inability to understand and talk about pain.As she explains:
... [W]hen we are in pain, we are not selves who can approximate rationality and control; we are other and untidy and fragmented. When women give birth, they are physically distant from the sense of control over the body that Western discourses of selfhood make central; they are very distant from the discourses of choice that frame the caesarean rates debate. I am not suggesting here that women become irrational in childbirth ... I am however suggesting that we continue to frame birthing experiences and decisions as if that model of subjectivity were the relevant one and in so doing, we move further away from articulating the realities of birthing, of pain and of the ways in which women engage.So epidurals, as the most effective form of pain relief, give women control over their own bodies and control over the way in which they behave. This allows women to represent themselves to others in the ways in which they wish to be seen, instead of pushing them into a "non-rational" space.
While women like Rixa value the ability to move above all else, and therefore consider forgoing an epidural empowering, most women value the ability to control their own bodies and control the way that they behave. For them, pain is disempowering because it robs them of the control they value, and robs them of the ability to articulate other desires or even speak.
The bottom line is that there is nothing inherently empowering about pain or pain relief. It depends on what each individual woman values and wishes to control. Wanting to move in labor is no more or less important than wanting to be comfortable in labor. Women who choose epidurals find them very empowering.
This piece first appeared in February 2010.
Clarify 'most' you would have us believe 'most' women are empowered by epidurals. While I agree that it is a personal thing and some women will or won't find them useful I wouldn't be brash enough to make a 'most' statement without some facts and figures. I for one did not want an epidural but was prepared to consider it if I needed it. I went into my induced labour knowing it would hurt but I did not scream, I did not swear, I did not lose all ability to be rational. Yes, at one point I was a bit out of it on gas and air, but basically I was lying being very tired, not acting in a way "I wouldn't like to be seen". when it got to the point of pushing and I was asked to put the gas and air mouthpiece down I did so rationally and without question. The memory is very clear and at that point I could fully comprehend what my caregivers (those dreaded UK midwives you have such disdain for) wanted of me. I was in control of myself, capable of not screaming or swearing or acting impulsively and was also in control of my body. You make it sound as though all women who turn down epidurals turn into irrational screaming banshees. That is simply not the case. It takes speaking to very few women and watching very few birth programmes to realise while some women become irrational (often through fear) that is not true of many many women. From programmes I have seen it appears to be those who are most nervous and frightened who become most irrational and more often ask for an epidural. If their fear and their pain thresholds mean this helps then that is fine, if that empowers them, that is fine. But to make the statement "women who choose epidurals find them empowering" is misleading, if that were true there wouldn't be so many stories from women who felt the opposit. You've once again allowed your bias to miss out a key word "some". Some women who choose epidurals find them empowering, just as some women who choose to go without find that empowering. The important word are "some" and "choose". Women should be given unbiased information on all options and be allowed to choose as that in itself can be empowering. To scaremonger pregnant women into having epidurals by informing them they'll become irrattional screaming banshees otherwise is completely irresponsable of you, and shows again that your agenda to decry natural birth leads you to mislead for your own gain. If your women do fall into two camps, irrational screamers or those who've had an epidural I pity those who have laboured under you as you must have been doing something to ensurre the pain was unbearable. But maybe its the over use of pitocin causing contractions to come harder and faster that natural (and I've experienced this) that leads to such pain and panic? Perhaps restricting their ability to move and eat as they see fit? Or the numerous other things you would advocate. Pain and pain relief are very very personal things to labouring women, and how they deal with pain (rationally or irrationally) is also personal. I suggest you respect that, rather than scaremongering for your own gain.
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